Monday, April 23, 2012

A trip to Portland( wonderful last memory)

 Kermit didnt want to wake up

 what a lovely hotel room:)

 i love rose pen:)


 I thought I was in China:) haha

 very nice copy:)


 love this bookstore:)

 love this ring so much!! it has roses:)

 I wanted to visit the winery not because I am a big fan of wine, because I wanted to visit your hometown:)



 good taste!! I really love this scarf:)

 so delicious:)



 Rose garden has no rose:) but i wasn't disappointed, because I was with you:) my heart was blooming with roses.


 I was walking alone in downtown portland. I knew I was alone, he never wanted me. But I was still happy. At least he showed me his hometown, Although he didnt even want me to hug him, I am still content. It was a nice trip. I love the rain more, so soft, so calm.... I didn't want to say goodbye, but  I had to...... it has been 2 years, I have been loving a man with no love for me.....sigh, I only wish all the best to him, I wish he can get the best things in the world. All the luck come to him. I wish he love....I am leaving san francisco. So I already said goodbye, so by the time I leave sf, I won't feel so sad....because he already left my life. Janey...... he never knows how much you him......he never cares, never cherish.... why? why do you treat him so nicely?
because I love him...
I don't know if I can ever love another man...... sigh........ but I know how I am when I love a man...


I have tried all my best to love a man. It was a wonderful journey......
Somehow I thought I know him well, but actually he never showed me who he is, he only shows himself to his real friends, I could tell from the way he looks at them. And that is exactly what I can't give to him. He never looks at me like a sunny day.... I guess because the sun can never goes with the rain......

I am the rain, I will grow up..... fade into a rainbow:)
Janey....
You will be loved:) by the one who truly love you!!!  Let's wait:)