Saturday, May 5, 2012

Learn to be lonely








Life is too short sometimes.... I knew it and I had tired my best to love you, cherish you...yet missing you is too painful..... 5 years to forget my old love.....5 years again to forget you..... When I leave San Francisco, I will hide to somewhere when you can't find me.




Monday, April 23, 2012

A trip to Portland( wonderful last memory)

 Kermit didnt want to wake up

 what a lovely hotel room:)

 i love rose pen:)


 I thought I was in China:) haha

 very nice copy:)


 love this bookstore:)

 love this ring so much!! it has roses:)

 I wanted to visit the winery not because I am a big fan of wine, because I wanted to visit your hometown:)



 good taste!! I really love this scarf:)

 so delicious:)



 Rose garden has no rose:) but i wasn't disappointed, because I was with you:) my heart was blooming with roses.


 I was walking alone in downtown portland. I knew I was alone, he never wanted me. But I was still happy. At least he showed me his hometown, Although he didnt even want me to hug him, I am still content. It was a nice trip. I love the rain more, so soft, so calm.... I didn't want to say goodbye, but  I had to...... it has been 2 years, I have been loving a man with no love for me.....sigh, I only wish all the best to him, I wish he can get the best things in the world. All the luck come to him. I wish he love....I am leaving san francisco. So I already said goodbye, so by the time I leave sf, I won't feel so sad....because he already left my life. Janey...... he never knows how much you him......he never cares, never cherish.... why? why do you treat him so nicely?
because I love him...
I don't know if I can ever love another man...... sigh........ but I know how I am when I love a man...


I have tried all my best to love a man. It was a wonderful journey......
Somehow I thought I know him well, but actually he never showed me who he is, he only shows himself to his real friends, I could tell from the way he looks at them. And that is exactly what I can't give to him. He never looks at me like a sunny day.... I guess because the sun can never goes with the rain......

I am the rain, I will grow up..... fade into a rainbow:)
Janey....
You will be loved:) by the one who truly love you!!!  Let's wait:)




Monday, March 26, 2012

All days are nights

When most I wink, then do mine eyes best see,


For all the day they view things unrespected;

But when I sleep, in dreams they look on thee,

And darkly bright, are bright in dark directed.

Then thou, whose shadow shadows doth make bright,

How would thy shadow's form form happy show

To the clear day with thy much clearer light,

When to unseeing eyes thy shade shines so!

How would, I say, mine eyes be blessed made

By looking on thee in the living day,

When in dead night thy fair imperfect shade

Through heavy sleep on sightless eyes doth stay!

All days are nights to see till I see thee,

And nights bright days when dreams do show thee me.

















Monday, March 5, 2012