someday we will find it----the rainbow connection

Janey AirLine---To the Janey Star

2011-10-30T00:22:00.000-07:00

They are Just Music

2011-10-23T01:36:00.000-07:00

I just knew it, they are just music, from you. They have no meanings, yet they brought me to the heaven then now back in hell, and I saw you on the other day, I just walked away as if you are a stranger. I think this is the best way for me to get over you.

When I am down, I will write something here then I will be happy again:) Yay, today I had my very first runway show:)

You just posion my mind withe the music.......

and

They are only music, Janey....

no meanings

no feelings

You are just a dreamer, and he is always the heartbreaker.

It's funny that....after you told me they are just music. I never dream of you again, instead....

they are all nightmares.......

What I didn't understand....

2011-09-23T03:29:00.000-07:00

I understand all now...... you are just not that into me,,,,

Certainty is beautiful,but uncertainty is more beautiful still .....

Present in Absence

2011-08-19T00:06:00.000-07:00

Sleepless in my dreams

2011-07-21T00:59:00.000-07:00

I want to sleep

Underneath the weeping willow

As it crys all night quietly

Its tears all around me

I'll sleep there so soundly

Until I'm allowed finally

To wake and be happy again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uYeNZkqCWHw&feature=related

I was in Seattle.....trying to feel sleepless in Seattle. Seattle is such a beautiful city. I perefer Seattle, coz I can't see you there......
I was a fool. I knew it was only a dream, but I still put my heart in the same place....
It was only a dream, and I am sleepless in my dream...

Remind me not, remind me not

2011-07-08T02:28:00.000-07:00

Remind me not, remind me not,

Of those beloved, those vanish'd hours,

When all my soul was given to thee;

Hours that may never be forgot,

Till Time unnerves our vital powers,

And thou and I shall cease to be.

“Absence - that common cure of love.”

2011-06-29T10:21:00.000-07:00

It rains again in San Francisco...
I used to think rainy day is such a romantic and wonderful day...
but today.....
my heart aches.......for every drop of rain.....

So we'll go no more a roving by Lord Byron

2011-06-29T10:07:00.000-07:00

So, we'll go no more a roving

So late into the night,

Though the heart be still as loving,

And the moon be still as bright.

For the sword outwears its sheath,

And the soul wears out the breast,

And the hearth must pause to breathe,

And love itself have rest.

Though the night was made for loving,

And the days return too soon,

Yet we'll go no more a roving

By the light of the moon.

Let me fade my love for you in the rain,

rest my love for you in peace, forever and ever.....B....

Love is like a disease

2011-06-28T15:14:00.000-07:00

Honestly, I've never loved someone like this.......
Like a sickness, I want to know when I can get over this.....
Do you still care about me? If you are reading my blog, that means you still do, even just a little.
Time and time again, I said I'll leave you.....but this time it's for real. You said you will walk away from my life. Yes, because you've found her. I am just nothing important.

I used to think you love me like I do, I used to think you want me, I was so wrong, I was just mistaken. The truth is I am just a fool to want you,I am not like an adult, and you prefer mature woman.

I hope I can get well soon. So I can add your facebook again........

lonestar

2011-03-09T00:53:00.000-08:00

Lonestar where are you out tonight?

This feeling I'm trying to fight....

It's dark and I think that I would give anything

For you to shine down on my broken wings.

Fallen

2011-02-08T23:32:00.000-08:00

Yearning, falling, crashing, crying

To be all these things, with lack of dying

Tumbling, toiling, streaming, soaring

To be all these things, in skies we're burning!

Silent, still like, whisper, take it!

Quiet things, we dare not say it!

Feel it, breath it, hold me, take it!

These quiet things, let us pray that...

Now, with words, I ask you slowly

Immortal words, I tell you slowly

Unspoken words, you listen slowly

With quiet words, you kiss me slowly

End it, quench it, hold me, break it,

I have fallen, and now we praise it

Curse me, break me, loathe me, take it

I am but love, and you will hate it....

I just want to be loved by the one I love...why is that difficult?

The saddest thing in the world

2010-10-26T02:20:00.000-07:00

The saddest thing in the world;

Is not losing your lover,

Yet you can’t tell your feeling to the one you love.

The saddest thing in the world;

Is not you can’t tell your feeling to the one you love,

Yet you see the one you love just fell in love with other.

The saddest thing in the world;

Is not you see the one you love just fell in love with other,

Yet you said yes to the one love you just because you have no lover.

The saddest thing in the world;

Is not you said yes to the one love you just because you have no lover,

Yet you need to fake a smile everyday as if you look happy forever.

I am on my way to oblivion

2010-08-27T20:01:00.000-07:00

Night-Blind by Janey Black4| Lulu Poetry

2010-07-23T20:22:00.000-07:00

Night-Blind by Janey Black4 Lulu Poetry

The guitar=My memories

2010-07-23T15:18:00.000-07:00

I wasn't excited at all when I bought this guitar, I even looked sad.....Do you know why? There is a reason behind....

I told myself when I got the guitar, I would say goodbye to you. Because you are always on my mind, yet I know you don't even like me. How can I tell? It's easy...

When I see your eyes,

I see her inside....

How can I read your mind?

It's all from your smile.

You smile at me just to be nice,

Yet you smile at her like the sunny sky.( I can imagine)

You said I am young and lack of experience. I know....

I know I am just a piece of white paper,

Simple and clear.

Yet she is the beautiful words ever written

You will always remember her,

Yet forget about the paper.

The birthday gift was my last effort,

I know I still couldnt move you....

Becuse you don't like me at all...

I need to face this truth.

I know I told you friend is good,

but JUST to see your eyes, I have changed my mind.....

I didn't reply to you, I didn't pick up the phone, it is because I was crying.....

I was crying...Becuse I know I will never see you again, becuse ...

But you left me a voicemail...

Just to hear your voice, I have changed my mind, so I called you back

but I told you I fell alseep......

I know I am so silly to write all these down, you may laugh at me and never contact me..

It took five years to forget my first love, we loved each other crazily, I don't know how long I will take to forget about you, this blind fool love.... but I know you are my beautiful memories....just....I know you will never like me...

Good night! I wish the best for you!

All days are nights

2010-07-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

I'm just the words, looking for the tune

2010-07-12T00:14:00.000-07:00

Nothing else matters

2010-07-03T01:24:00.000-07:00

I want to lie down on a bed of roses

2010-07-01T22:27:00.000-07:00

Janey +Muni=Lonely

I just want to lie down on a bed of red roses...

While my guitar gently weeps

2010-06-21T00:10:00.000-07:00

My heart aches, when my guitar gently weeps.

and I am arrested by you

Please set me free

Song: Memory, hither come--William Blake

2010-06-17T00:05:00.000-07:00

Memory, hither come,

And tune your merry notes;

And, while upon the wind

Your music floats,

I'll pore upon the stream

Where sighing lovers dream,

And fish for fancies as they pass

Within the watery glass.

I'll drink of the clear stream,

And hear the linnet's song;

And there I'll lie and dream

The day along:

And, when night comes, I'll go

To places fit for woe,

Walking along the darken'd valley

With silent Melancholy.

White Bee by Pablo Neruda

2010-06-13T21:52:00.000-07:00

White bee, you buzz in my soul, drunk with honey

and your flight winds in slow spirals of smoke.

I am the one without hope, the word without echoes,

he who lost everything and he who had everything.

Last hawser, in you creaks my last longing.

In my barren land you are the final rose.

Ah you who are silent!

Let your deep eyes close. There the night flutters.

Ah your body, a frightened statue, naked.

You have deep eyes in which the night flails.

Cool arms of flowers and a lap of rose.

Your breasts seem like white snails.

A butterfly of shadow has come to sleep on your belly.

Ah you who are silent!

Why is my ear bleeding?（ Janey's No.8 poetry)

2010-06-13T13:02:00.000-07:00

It just happened,

The red is little by little
Dropping from the right ear.

I am not so scared.
My ear can still hear.
And I know the red will be cleared.

It can be my punishment,
For I never truly listened,
There is no red in this season.

Sunset soon forgotten

2010-06-13T00:09:00.000-07:00

Maybe Janey is like the sunset....

The night without internet(Janey's No.7 poetry)

2010-06-12T23:27:00.001-07:00

So the internet was not connecting,

Then I called.
I talked to the telephone men for hours,
I said,
“The light sometimes is on, sometimes is off.
I don’t know what’s wrong.”
“Don't worry, ma’am. Just one second.”
Then I waited,
“ Are you there? ma’am?”

“ Yes, I am still here.”

“ I need to find the technical support, I will let him help you.”

“ Just wait for 20 minutes, and I will call you back.”
Then I waited.
“ Hello, ma’am, may I help you?”
“Now I can see the internet light is blinking, but the activity light is still off.”
“If you see the internet light is blinking, that’s no problem, you just need to reset.”
Then I did.
“No, it is still not working. I don’t know what’s wrong.”
“ Sorry about that, ma’am.”
“just leave it there, after four hours and try again.
“Ok, thank you so much.”
“ Have a good evening, ma’am.”
Then after four hours,
The internet was still not connecting,
So I went to bed.

Faraway Black(Janey's No.6 poetry)

2010-06-10T12:34:00.000-07:00

When I close my eyes, I take a breath,
Just to feel the depth,
Of the fresh and faraway black.

It is the night when I can rest above;
It is the man who I can feel his love,
Yet it is just a color that I can never hug.

Black disappears when my eyes are open,
I cannot find it without direction.
Is it gone? Or it is just an illusion.

When I close my eyes,
Black and I,
We never say goodbye.

A Lost Bee( Janey's No.5 poetry)

2010-06-09T02:31:00.000-07:00

I just wish that little bee would fly away,

And not staying at my room all day;

Have opened the windows and doors,
But as if it doesn’t like the nature any more.

And of course I want it to go back and wish it love.

But then it is just hiding above.

Where are you? Little Bee.
Am I a flower? Or another lost bee?

Disappearing Night(Janey's No.3 poetry)

2010-06-05T02:30:00.000-07:00

I have read so many poems about the night, but this one is about Janey. As we know, the night is a metaphor, it can be darkness, it can be mystery, it can be anything that you associate with. I think most poets are into the night, right?

When things disappear in the dark of night, we just forget the night will disappear itself.

I still remember you told me you want to disappear sometimes, then I asked you, disappear? To where?
Then you said, this is another issue...Later on I keep thinking of this question, musing every night....
Disappear? To where?
You disappeared, I call you back in silent.
There is no sound, but words.
I hope you still can hear it....

Disappearing Night

The night is going to disappear,
So I ask,
Disappear?
To where?
The night is speechless,
Then,
Disappear.

So when I wake up,
I don’t see the night any more.

Summer Vacation

2010-06-03T00:33:00.000-07:00

summer vacation, more like summer depression....

I can't make you love me

2010-05-31T01:42:00.001-07:00

Emptiness is filling me....
I know I can't make you love me...
I know...

Lover, you should have come over...

2010-05-28T23:41:00.000-07:00

Plain Jane

2010-05-27T18:23:00.000-07:00

I am just simple....

Far Away Eyes

2010-05-27T00:45:00.001-07:00

My eyes are so far away......
Since I have been thinking of someone far away....
He is my beautiful swan dream...
Heartbroken.....but still beautiful......

How can I tell you again?

2010-05-27T00:28:00.000-07:00

How can I tell you again...

My feeling about you?

How can I tell you again?

Since the first time I saw you, I never have a moment can stop thinking about you,

I think of you all day,

I can't sleep well at night,

It's all because of you.

But you will never know

Because I will never tell you again..

I can just write all my feelings down..

Here...

My dark romantic refuge....

How can I tell you again?

I decided to take you as a friend..

And I thought I would feel better.

Oh... you don't like me...

Somehow I think...

You must be in love with a girl..

She must be special...

I told you I wish you love..

I really should let it go...

Let it go....

Yes..

That is what I am trying to do everyday..

How can I tell you again?

I can't tell you again..

I think I love you...B...

Shall I Compare Thee To A Rainy Day?

2010-05-26T01:56:00.001-07:00

Rainy Day （ Janey's very first English poetry)

2010-05-19T01:09:00.000-07:00

I am in pain,

When I see your face from far away,

On a lovely rainy day.

The rain is falling on your face,

Falling slowly to your way,

Yet you are fading in the rain.

My wound is still paining,

And the rain is still falling.

Falling tranquilly through my pain.

I am in pain,

When I see your face,

On a bleary rainy day.

PS: It is very rough since I dont know how to write an English poetry. This is my true feeling about someone, I saw him on a rainy day,yet he will never know I wrote this poetry for him afterwards. Hmm....I am actually writing the melody of this poetry, so this is the lyrics then... I am working on the real Janey song :)

What happened in Las Vegas?

2010-03-29T01:23:00.000-07:00

ASK JANEY~~~lol...

HOPE

2010-03-19T18:18:00.001-07:00

Seriously, where is Hope?

There is hope...

but just far away from me...

I used to hide my words...I hid everything.....

Now I don't hide myself anymore...

Because....

Anyways....

Be Happy, Janey....Okay?....

Plz smile...even I know this is not true...

Springbreak is coming...

I know where I am going...

I know what I am going to do

I know how my feeling is..

I know all...

I know ......

but yeah....

I just don't know about you...

Anyways...

I said I wish you love...

then I should let it go........

" my breaking heart and I agree,

that you and I could never be..."

excellent lyrics.....

Hey....Happy holiday....

Janey is playing a game of hide and go seek

2009-12-10T20:46:00.000-08:00

so many songs are about Janey...lol....
this one is called Jane by Starship..

Jane you say it's all over for you and me girlThere's a time for love and a time for letting it be babyJane you're playing a game called, called hard to get by it's real name,Making believe that you just don't feel the same. oh janeJane you're playing a game you never can win girlYou're staying away so i'll ask you where you been babyLike a cat and a mouse, (cat and a mouse) from door to door and house to houseDon't you pretend you don't know what i'm talking aboutWere all those nights we spent together, hey heyOnly because you didn't know better, i gotta knowJane, you're playin' a game, playin' a game, playin' a game(jane, jane, jane)Ah jane you're playing a game of hide and go seekJane you're playing for fun but i play for keeps, yes i do(jane, jane, jane) that's a game on me(jane, jane, jane) so plain to seeJaney jane why you foolin' with me(jane, jane, jane)

little Janey is gone ( sad song) by Nick Cave

2009-12-10T00:41:00.000-08:00

http://ting.mbox.sogou.com/listenV2.jsp?gid=12c66dad786e2a47&cid=1FBCE2DA85F06F02&t=Little+Janey%27s+Gone&lid=0000000000000000&p=99340200&dp=1

Janey's gone now and she won't be back no moreIt was only yesterday I went knocking on her doorNow she's gone away, we won't see her no moreLittle Janey's gone now, Janey's gone nowJaney's gone now, Janey's goneLittle Janey's gone now, Janey's gone nowJaney's gone awayOh, yes, she is gone awayOh, man, that's for sureLittle Janey's gone now, Janey's gone nowJaney's gone awayJaney's gone, oh people, oh, Lord, little Janey is goneShe was the only one that we all could dip [Incomprehensible]And now she's gone away, we won't see her 'round here no moreLittle Janey's gone now, Janey's gone nowJaney's gone now, Janey's goneLittle Janey's gone now, Janey's gone nowJaney's gone awayOh, yes, she is gone awayOh, man, that's for sureLittle Janey's gone now, Janey's gone nowJaney's gone awayJaney's gone now and she won't be back no moreWe'll have to find some other place to go and score'Cause now she's gone, don't you seeThey're gonna throw away away the key'Cause little Janey's gone down, Janey's gone downJaney's gone down, Janey's goneLittle Janey's gone down, Janey's gone downJaney's gone away

2009 Acura TL （san francisco) I love SF more！！

2009-12-08T18:05:00.000-08:00

After watching this video，I LOVE SF! MORE AND MORE!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S-EB6d-_fNw

a romantic love story in san francisco.

What is truth?

2009-12-04T03:25:00.000-08:00

Truth is when other people said it is wrong, but you believe in it.

Truth is where you can find your own wonderful world.

Truth is Janey' s dream...

Follow Janey's 10 rules, then u can light her night

2009-11-26T01:53:00.000-08:00

1，don't call her sunshine, she will be mad at you, call her darkness, she will be happy.
2, If you see her sleep over 10 hours,she is not dead. she is just lazy
3, She likes to play guitar, encourage her, and dont push her to play piano, coz she doesnt play it anymore.
4. She is into fashion, if you are not interested in it, pretending you are, if you are interested in it, pretending you don't know anything
5, She likes to cook, don't offer to clean the dishes, or you have to clean the house.
6, When she can't find a model to make her dress, you have to help her out, be her model.
7, She likes poetry, try to wirte poetry to her. She will be very happy
8, You dont need to buy her 99999 roses , just single rose is enough
9, She likes to write, write letters to her.
10, Cherish her, don't ever break her heart

If it disturbs you, it's love

2009-11-22T20:24:00.001-08:00

(my friend's design)

People said if it disturbs you, it's art...

yes indeed.

but I said

if it disturbs you, it's love...

if it hurts you, it's love...

if it kills you, it's love...

if it saves you, it's love...

and...

if it revives you, it's love...

love is magic, it is just so illusive for me....

Yes.....

love is when I think too much, and it disturbs me...

So I like to be hiding....

When Janey is hiding from you, It doesn't mean she hates you,
It means she falls in love with you..Silly..

My Dark Memory

2009-11-17T19:29:00.000-08:00

Janey is a dark romantic fashion designer.
Let's see how dark she is..... You are probably laughing at my darkness, thank you for your laughing, because that is what I want. I hope my darkness can bring happiness to people.

there is a poem about Janey, and the perfect interpretation. ( you need to highlight to see.hehe they are hidden meanings)

Janey's Lament

At best, it be the blinded eye,
<--- She doesn't realize the guy likes her
having chosen to hide the light.
<--- She's chosen to not acknowledge a man's affection
At best, it be the clouded mind,
<--- She really doesn't know when a man is interested in her
wanting to not see the sight
<--- And she doesn't care or want to know
At best, it be the innocent smile,
<--- She knows the guy is interested, so she smiles at him to be nice
given from kind to kind
<--- The guy likes her and accepts the smile
At best, it be the quiet long
<--- She knows the guy likes her, and she just wants someone in her life to hold
given from kind to kind
<--- She gives her affections to someone who feels the same
At worst it be the blinded eye
<--- She knows a guy likes her, but she plays as though she doesn't
refusing to bring the light
<--- She purposefully refuses to accept it
At worst it be the quiet long
<--- She refused to accept it, but wants the affection...
giving in from time to time...
<--- She will give in to the guy affection .. but still play as though she didn't know anything...

How are you doing? Darkness.....

2009-11-16T19:42:00.000-08:00

Hey! Welcome to Janey's Hidden Blog!